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Aug 012019

So we’ve all heard of IQ.  And EQ is gaining a bit more recognition in the public eye as we become more aware of our need for emotional intelligence.  But what’s BQ?

BQ, or body intelligence, is how well we are able to listen to our bodies.  It’s about tuning in to that subtle and profound wisdom that we carry around in our physical bodies that we have access to in every moment.  BQ is our ability to pay attention to our bodies’ cues and understanding how to manage them.  This is critical for knowing what we need and when we need it.  It’s one of the most important keys for great health and lasting happiness.

Every day, we have to deal with multiple stress points.  We get depleted, exhausted, distressed, etc.  Since we are surrounded by distractions and high energy stimuli, we often compensate by switching off or numbing out, doing what we can to turn the volume down.  The result is that sometimes we lose sight of our needs.  We don’t get enough sleep, or the right food, or enough activity.  In short, we forget to be kind to ourselves.

BQ is our ability to remain aware of our bodies, to notice the sensations that arise and listen to them.  When we can do that, especially when we make it instinctive, we enhance our happiness and quality of life.  And, like all things, it’s a practice.  The more often we make it a point to check in with ourselves and listen to what our body has to say, the more natural it is to notice it in the moment.

This is one of the central features of self-care that’s largely ignored or overlooked in modern society.  There are plenty of extremely intelligent people out there, some with a good sense of their emotions, who are unconscious of their bodies.  And their health suffers as a result.  We might put on extra weight, get fatigued, carry around ridiculous levels of stress, and even get sick if we leave it too long.  We sidestep our needs with coffee, sugar, or alcohol, compensating when we could be going to the source, feeling better not just now, but for the long run.

BQ is essential in every aspect of life.  Listening when our body asks us to take a break.  Getting still and checking in so we know when we need more sleep, or a good healthy meal.  When we need a bit more water or to get our body moving.  By listening, we can improve our productivity, sharpen our mind, and boost energy levels.  It doesn’t happen overnight.  Changing habits and learning to be more aware of our body is a practice.  But, if we’re willing to put in the time and effort, the rewards are improved productivity, better happiness, and improved health.

It doesn’t end there.  Another huge part of taking care of ourselves physically, is touch.  We need to feel, to have contact with others, or even to touch ourselves and awaken our sensations.  This is a way to become more conscious and more alive, to bring more joy into every moment that we experience.

Massage is a key part of taking care of ourselves on a physical level.  Touch is a form of self-love, a way of giving back to our body and nourishing ourselves with the affection that we need.  When we listen to our bodies’ needs for touch, we reduce stress and boost our levels of serotonin and oxytocin.  We actually become happier, healthier, and more confident.

So, with this in mind, here are a few simple pointers for boosting your BQ:

1. Check in

Take a few moments to regularly stop and listen to your body.  Drop what you’re doing and notice what you can.  Get still and tune in to the sensations.

2. Listen to the cues

Instead of just noticing the sensation, ask yourself what it means.  What is your body saying to you?  It might be asking for water, or food, or touch, or a bit of rest.  Learn how your body gives you these messages.

3. Do something about it

Your body’s cues are giving you a message, helping you to become aware of a need.  So, take action on what it tells you.  Drink some water.  Take a break.  Get moving.  Set up a massage so that you can get some nourishing touch.

It’s a simple as that.  And the more often you make it a point to stop and check in, the more instinctive it will become.  The beautiful thing is that the more you listen and give your body what it’s asking for, the healthier and happier you become.

In love and light,


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Jun 012019

One thing that came to my attention again last week was the need for all the ladies out there to give back to themselves.  In fact, I had two different women come to me, each coming out of really challenging situations, and both in need of some beautiful loving attention.  And this isn’t unusual.

As women, we are often put in the position of taking care of others.  Sometimes our own needs are put on the back-burner while we make sure that others have what they need.  But the thing is, if we aren’t fulfilled, there isn’t much to give back to others.  There’s only so much we can give without making sure our own needs are met.

One way to do this is with Yoni massage.  Women are sensual creatures.  It’s part of who we are, how we are built.  We are connected to our bodies on a deep level, and we need to honour the body.  And sometimes, we don’t give ourselves permission to do that.  A yoni massage or full body sensual massage is an amazing way to bring in some beautiful self-love.  Plus, there’s nothing like an amazing, toe curling orgasm to re-energise the body and tap into deeper levels of vitality and joy.

Women are often more resistant to sexual pleasure-based therapies than men.  But it’s ok to seek these out.  There’s no shame associated with it.  In fact, a yoni massage or sensual full body massage is a perfect way to reclaim ourselves.  That’s what these therapies are for.  By allowing ourselves to orgasm, we explore our sexual selves.  We allow ourselves to expand and to create a deeper connection with our bodies.

Touch and orgasm are ways of honouring our bodies.  They help us to reawaken our sensual selves and reconnect with our passion and joy.  Healthy self-love and touch is a way of giving back to ourselves.  And, when we give back to ourselves, we get back to ourselves.  We reclaim that sense of vitality and energy that makes live a joy to live.  We all deserve that.  We deserve to connect with sensual feeling and allow ourselves passionate, sensual expansion.

So check in.  Have you been giving back to yourselves?  Making sure you schedule some time for some loving self-touch?  Have you given yourself permission to take care of your own needs, or has it been all about taking care of others?  Maybe it’s time.

If you’re curious about yoni massage and you’d like to know more about it, feel free to reach out.  I love to help my clients to reconnect with their bodies and embrace their sexual selves.

In love and light,


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Apr 042019
Couple two hands together tantra intimacy

If you’re new to this world, you might think that working with a tantric practitioner is only for single people.  But that couldn’t be further from the truth.  One of the things that I enjoy best as a tantric therapist is the opportunity to work with couples, to help them to deepen their relationship and enhance their love lives.  It’s been amazing to work with couples, both one-on-one and with couples massage, watching as their connection grows stronger and their satisfaction grows.

With one-on-one sessions, couples expand their learning base, receiving firsthand knowledge of sensual erotic touch and body wisdom.  There’s no better way to learn about touch than through touch.  These sessions help you to understand how you like to be touched, to discover what feels good and how to tune into that feeling to make it even more delicious.  This is a main part of Tantra, learning to slow down and feel, how to take your time and savour the experience.  Another beautiful benefit is that these sessions teach you different touch skills and different elements of touch.

Another huge benefit for couples is the couples massage. When we move into couples massage, you learn how to be with one another in new and different ways.  Sometimes we fall into patterns and things can get a bit stale.  We use the same forms of touch again and again, and the spark begins to dim.  But with couples massage, you can learn different ways of touching one another, of relating and sharing with one another.  This brings variety into the relationship, making it a never ending exploration.  This fans the spark back alive and brings the excitement that everyone hopes for back into the connection.

But tantric sessions aren’t just for couples that have started to lose their steam.  These are touch skills that improve your intimacy and deepen your connection even when things are still exciting.  No matter where you are in your relating, it helps to learn to slow down and deepen your feeling, to tune in to your partner and learn how to touch them the way that they want to be touched.  Tantra helps you to explore touch and feeling in all of its forms, keeping passion and connection strong throughout your entire life.

So, whether you’d like to learn more about touch one-on-one or explore a couples massage with your partner, feel free to reach out.  I love sharing these skills with others and helping them to tap into their most exquisite sensual experiences.

In love and light,


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Feb 012019
Become fully alive and in the moment with a Tantra Massage.

One thing that I hear all the time when first meeting a new client is, “I’m familiar with Tantra.  I’ve read all about it.”  This is great.  Maybe you’ve read about a tantra workshop in the papers or come across an article in a magazine.  If you’ve delved a bit deeper, your curiosity may have led you to a book from one of the many wonderful authors on the subject.

All of this is a beautiful beginning.  It’s by reading about tantric techniques and philosophy that we learn about it to begin with.  When it comes right down to it, though, reading is just the beginning.  Tantra is more than just knowledge and ideas.  It’s experiential.  Tantra is a feeling experience, something that is learned through the body rather than the mind.  To explore tantra, you have to be with a partner who understands the finer details.  This is doubly important when seeking out the attentions of a practitioner.

One of the best ways to begin the bodily exploration of tantra is with a Tantra Massage.  Many of my clients tell me that they’ve wanted to do this session for a long time but have been putting it off.  And this is understandable, but if you want to take it to the next level, visiting a tantric practitioner is the way to go.

A Tantra Massage is about more than just a sexual experience.  It’s sensual on a level deeper than most people ever experience.  It’s about tuning into the feeling and bringing the sexual energies into your whole body.  Through sensation and breath, you practice allowing the energy to rise up from the genitals and flow through the entire body system.  You breathe the energy throughout the body, and the more you breathe, the more you feel.  This is a simple technique, but it has the potential to profoundly transform your sensual experience, in the bedroom and in every aspect of life.

Without training, our sexuality is often unconscious.  Fast and hard.  And there’s a place for this, but it’s only part of the experience.  A Tantra Massage teaches us to go slow.  We take our time with the massage, with the genitals and the whole body.  We build the energy gradually and saturate the entire body through breath.

The tantric experience can be beautiful and overwhelming.  And the results are phenomenal.  It can lead to a body orgasm.  This is different to an ejaculation.  The ejaculation is an outward explosion of energy.  In a body orgasm, though, the energy is built and magnified until it explodes inwardly in a torrent of sensation.  Ejaculation is amazing and fun, but once you’ve had a body orgasm, you’ll understand why the tantric experience is worth the exploration.

So, go ahead and indulge your curiosity, stimulate the mind with as much study as you need.  And then, when you really want to explore tantra, take it into the body.  A Tantra Massage is a wonderful new experience, exquisite and profound.  It will invite an entire range of new sensations into your body.  This is something that no one should miss, and I recommend that everyone has one at least once in their lives.

So, when you’re ready to feel the difference within your own body and deepen your knowledge of tantra from within, come along for a Tantra Massage with me. 

In love and light, 


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Dec 012018

Ok, who out there really knows how to tell your lover what you want?  How you want to be touched, what you want to feel?  If you’ve got that down, by all means move on to the next subject.  But, if you’ve ever been shy or felt uncomfortable talking about what feels good, then this is for you.

There’s a bit of a stigma around talking dirty.  Around sexuality itself, for that matter.  And then we wonder why we aren’t satisfied.  Well, the good news is that it doesn’t have to be that way.  We don’t have to lock away our desires and hide them from our lover.  We can actually open up and talk about what turns us on.  And, if you’ve been a little shy, no worries.  There’s no time like the present.

Sometimes we keep quiet because we’re afraid of being judged.  Maybe we’ve been taught to judge ourselves.  To think it’s not right for us to want to be pleased and tell our lover what that looks like, what we imagine it might.  The truth of the matter is that sometimes we learn the wrong lessons, and that’s one of them.  It’s not wrong to talk about our desires.  In fact, it couldn’t be more right.

How do you feel when your lover tells you what they like?  Does it get you excited?  Bring in a little tingle, a bit of warmth in your belly and deeper?  It’s juicy and enticing to have a lover tell us what really gets them going.  And our lover feels the same way about hearing it from us.  Man or woman, it doesn’t matter.  Touch me here, slide your tongue along me like that, let me feel you in this position…  This is hot!  It’s a way to unapologetically embrace our desires and invite a depth of passion.

And you don’t have to wait for things to get hot and heavy first.  You may want to practice in those sexy moments, getting closer and sharing a kiss or a nuzzle.  Whisper a little desire in your lover’s ear.  Share about a sensual experience you’d like to have.  Talk about what revs your engine, and see how your lover responds.  You might get a bit of surprise, but I can guarantee it won’t be disappointment.  In fact, this can be the key to bringing your connection to a juicier, more exquisite level than you’ve ever felt before.  Try it once, and you’ll find that you want to talk about those sexy little thoughts again the next time.  This is a way to drive your lover wild before you even reach the bedroom.

So, have a think about it.  What do you want?  Sensual massage?  A little bit of bondage?  How can you share your desires to inspire passion and delicious connection?  Maybe challenge yourself to say it in the moment, when it really counts.  Let yourself talk a bit dirty, and see what happens.  There’s no way you’ll want to get shy again after your lover shows you what it means to them to hear you.

Wishing you some deliciously naughty moments in this holiday season,


Nov 032018

This is a really beautiful question.  It’s a term that you hear tossed around more these days, especially around sex.  And, you know that tantra is a big part of my own services, Tantra Massage and Sensual Massage. But, what is it?

Really, tantra is about all life.  Sex is the metaphor for learning presence, true embodiment, and full aliveness.  Tantra is a path to learning ourselves and learning to really feel life.

Our feelings are powerful.  When we haven’t dealt with them, they hang around and pop back up whenever we’re triggered.  One way that we learn to block these feelings is distracting ourselves.  Getting our mind going and dropping out of our bodies.  Think about it.  What does your right big toe feel like right now?  If you’re like most people, you didn’t have any idea until you stopped to feel into it.  Becoming embodied means feeling all the nuanced sensations across our skin and within us.  There’s so much to feel within our bodies in any moment that if we are able to really be present to it, we wouldn’t have much time or space for obsessions or stories.

Tantra is all about acceptance, on the deepest level you can imagine.  When we try to hold away feeling, we are rejecting it.  In rejecting something within us, we split ourselves.  We create a war inside, both the part that we identify with and the part that we reject clamoring for attention.  Rejecting things causes us to contract.  It blocks our energy and connection to the world.  Acceptance expands us, allowing us to feel free, to listen to ourselves and follow the subtle wisdom of our bodies.

The really beautiful thing about this is that acceptance is also the key to transformation.  When we reject a part of ourselves, we split it away from the part connected with our will and identity.  And we fight it.  In fighting, we make it stronger.  So we make it even harder to let go of that aspect of ourselves we don’t like.  By accepting it, by holding the hand of the hurting child inside, we make space for it to transform on its own.  And accepting it is all about letting it in, allowing ourselves to really feel it.

Sex is one of the most profound and sensual experiences that a human being can have.  That’s why tantra is often described and taught in terms of sexuality.  Two people come together in an explosion of feeling, an inner urge.  The mind can come in to try to control the situation, shape it somehow.  The practice of tantra helps us to learn how to let go of the mind again and just follow the energy.  We feel each grazing touch, swim in our body’s response to the sensation, take our time and allow the experience to flow naturally.

Sex is a great way to teach this because the sensations across our skin and the rising energy in our body are so powerful and present.  It’s a beautiful path to embodiment.  But you don’t stop there.  Tantra teaches us to bring that same level of awareness into your body at all times.  To make life a sensual experience.  And, in the process, we learn to hear our feelings when they come up, to process them in the moment instead of burying them so that they can surface later.  We learn how to relate from a more real and fulfilling place.

This has just been a short introduction to what tantra really is.  It shines a light on what I really do, what tantra massage is really all about.  In later articles, I’ll explore it further, going into how the practice can help you have more fulfilling relationships and the most amazing sex life you could possibly imagine.  Tune in next time for some more juicy tidbits.

In love and light, 


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Sep 032018

Did you know that not so long ago, the female orgasm was considered to be a myth?  Mostly by men, perhaps, but the culture of a century ago widely thought that sexual pleasure was a man’s world.  We’ve made a lot of progress since then (thank heaven!), but you can still see the echoes of this perspective in our cultural approach to sexuality.

Here’s one example: It’s not all that hard for a man to find a massage parlor offering a happy ending.  For women, it’s another matter entirely.  Have a look at this:


This is the journey of Karley Sciortino as she looks for a service that offers happy endings for women.  It’s brief, and lots of fun, so enjoy.  It also brings up some really good questions.  Why is it so hard, even in an urban sprawl like New York, to receive or even find a service that lets a woman experience orgasm on demand?  Why can’t we rock up and get an erotic massage and happy ending whenever we like?  Is it just that our culture accepts such things for men but frowns on them for women?  And if so, it’s time to put that antiquated attitude on the shelf.

Pleasure is not just a man’s world.  Both sexes have an equal right to sexuality, to sensuality and touch.  And we all love pleasure.  Sure, it’s no replacement for a relationship, but there’s nothing wrong – and a whole lot right – with being able to gift our bodies with sensual massage and regular orgasms.  It keeps us healthy and vital.  It keeps the whole of our bodies and beings alive.

And, for all those who think that women don’t want this kind of attention, or that they shouldn’t want it, it’s time to wake up.  We’re in the 21st century.  Let’s let go of our limits around sexuality.  Let’s move past the taboos that have kept us from exploring our sexual natures, kept us repressing our sensual sides.  Sex is healthy.  It feels good.  It brings more satisfaction, more life, and more excitement into our world.  All of us deserve regular sexy attention!

Well, here’s some good news, girls.  It doesn’t have to be that hard to find this service.  I’m proud to be a sexual pleasurist and sensual therapist.  I offer these services so that you can receive an erotic massage – and more! –when you feel like giving your body a treat.  I have a background in Tantra Massage, Sensual & Erotic Massage, Lomi Lomi Massage, Yoni Massage and even Bondassage for the more kink inclined.  Bottom line, I love to explore my own sexual nature, and to help others to explore theirs.  It would be a delight to give you a bit of delight.

So, if your body is ready for a bit of attention, if you’d like to feel some touch, some pleasure, and a delicious orgasm, reach out.  I’m here for you.

In love and light,


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Jul 012018

All too often, sex is taken as a serious matter. Time to perform, to follow the script and get the job done. No laughing matter there. But this is a bit of a shame. Sexual play can be a beautiful, spontaneous interaction, an opportunity to let our natural state of energy rise and fill our bodies and our senses. And laughter has much more in common with sex than you might think. Plus, bringing laughter into the bedroom can make your love life even better. Here are a few ways that laughter and sex are connected:

1.Laughter and sex both relax us and make us feel more comfortable. They help to drop the stress, to bring a more lighthearted feeling into the moment. Laughing can lift your mood and ease your mind, helping you to be present and embodied. Bringing laughter into your sensual play can help you to drop the anxiety, release thoughts of performance, and step into spontaneity.

This is just the beginning, though. Laughter actually makes us more attractive. Even a simple smile can bring our features to life, but a full belly laugh will drop our guard and let us shine. And laughter eases any awkwardness or discomfort that we feel, helping us to enjoy intimacy and sensual play more fully. Plus, laughter during sex can feel amazing. When a woman laughs with her man inside of her, her vaginal muscles will tighten and ripple, sending juicy sensations through both of you.

2. Both laughter and sex help you to stay healthy, in more ways than one. They both ramp up the immune system and raise the levels of antibodies in our bloodstream. Laugh regularly and you might find that you hardly ever have to deal with a cold or flu again. The same thing happens with sex. People who have regular sex have 30% higher levels of a key antibody – immunoglobin A – than those who don’t.

That’s not the only health benefit. Laughter and sex also help us to stay fit. You can burn 10 to 40 calories just by laughing for ten to 15 minutes. 15 minutes of sex will burn an average of 72 calories. Both engage the core muscles as well, the muscles responsible for overall strength and fitness.

3. Aside from the psychological benefits, sex and laughter both elevate our moods and heighten pleasure in physiological ways. Our brains are constantly changing and reshaping. Everything that we do helps to create neural pathways. Regular laughter or sex builds stronger pathways for the experience of pleasure and sensation, making it easier for us to feel good.

This is reflected in our hormonal levels as well. Both laughter and sex help to balance our hormones and up the levels of feel good hormones. Hormones related to stress, like adrenaline and cortisol, drop with both sex and laughter, while the pleasure hormone endorphin is released into the bloodstream. The overall effect is better health and more enjoyment on every level.

4. When we laugh, our bodies go through many of the same changes we experience during and after sex. First, we tap into a level of energy that helps to transform our entire state of being. We always carry around a reservoir of pleasure energy, but often it remains below the surface. With laughter and sex, this energy bubbles up and is released through breath, sound, and motion. Also, after a good laugh or some beautiful lovemaking, the body drops into a state of deeper relaxation. Our breathing slows, the body temperature drops, and we’re left with more ease and peace at a biological level.

These are just a few of the benefits of both laughter and sex. And, though we might have to choose our moments for some steamy sexual play, we can laugh just about anywhere. Have a great laugh, have a great life!

In love and light,


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May 012018

A Hens party is a once in a lifetime experience. It’s a time to celebrate sensuality and the beauty of the journey into marriage. So why not do something really unique? Why not give the bride to be and all of her friends an experience that will keep things exciting for all the years to come?

A Tantric Hens Party is the perfect solution. It’s an experience that pampers the lucky lady and her companions with a sensual and delicious atmosphere and showcases a live lingam massage. The hen will learn, in person, the time-honoured techniques of giving her man so much pleasure that he’ll be eager for more.

The lingam massage is an ancient tantric art, a powerful technique that explores the ways of pleasure, the touches, strokes, rhythms, and energy that create connection and bring passion to the highest levels. The Hen and her friends will see a demonstration of the power and pleasure of lingam massage on a live model. Then, they’ll have a chance to get hands-on – don’t worry ladies, not with the model – and master the skills themselves.

Setting the Scene

Setting up is as fun for me as it is for the ladies. They always have plenty of questions as I prepare the workshop area: Who am I? Who is the man with me? What are we going to be doing?

I love building up the anticipation, getting everyone really excited about what comes next. Before long, we’re ready to begin. I have the bride and her friends sit back as our live model lays on the table, and that’s where the evening really kicks off!

Why Use a Live Model?

Fun! Having a gorgeous man ready to receive your attentions and watching him brought to incredible heights of pleasure is one of the hottest things imaginable. But it’s more than that, too. By having a live model in our Hen’s workshop, we get to see the techniques in action. This is most delicious part of the night. We step out of the classroom and observe how each touch, stroke, and breath is received, how these sensations guide a man into ecstasy.

And to top it off, you won’t just be watching. You’ll be participating, having a chance to practice and refine these techniques so you can take them home with you and practice on your partner.

Three Techniques You’ll Learn

Let’s start with the massage! Every day our bodies are different. We feel different, both physically and emotionally. So, when giving your partner a massage, it’s important to explore where they are on that day and meet them in the sweet spot. One great technique for this is the Resilience Touch Technique.

The core of Resilience Touch is communication. When touching your partner, ask them how the touch feels. If it’s a bit too hard for them in that moment, just soften up a bit and ask again. Or, if they’re wanting the touch to be a bit firmer, they’ll let you know that as well. Keep asking and making adjustments until you find the touch that your partner enjoys most.

One beautiful thing about Resilience Touch is that when you’re really present with your partner in the moment, conscious of the touch you share, your lover can feel it. It takes the massage to the next level.

Now let’s get a bit spicier! Here are two beautiful techniques for the Lingam massage:

Making Fire

Place your hands on either side of the shaft and move your hands as if you were trying to make fire. Start at the bottom, working your way up and back down again. Change up the sensation by applying more or less pressure or by moving your hands faster or slower. You can bring in a subtle new sensation by blowing on the lingam. Your breath will feel cool from far away and warm from closer.

North, East South and West

Imagine that north is towards the head, east is to your right, south is towards the feet, and west is to your left. In this technique, the strokes move from the base of the shaft to the head. First, stroke the lingam in the northern direction three times. Then, place the lingam facing east and stroke in the eastern direction three times. Keep going around the compass until you’ve covered all the directions.

What Your Hens Will Take Home from This Experience

A Tantra Hen’s Party is exciting, sensual, and educational. It’s a chance to learn a powerful feminine wisdom that will bring more excitement and connection into your relationship.

The best thing is that once the night is over, the fun is just beginning! You will want to explore these new skills with your partner at home, deepening the sensuality, pleasure, and intensity of your love life.

The Hen also receives a beautiful starter kit to begin her tantric journey with her partner, soon to be husband.

With these skills on hand, each moment you share with your lover will be juicier and more passionate than the last.

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Mar 012018

I have something exciting and delicious to share with you.  I have been a facilitator and therapist for some time now, helping my clients explore feeling and open to their sensuality, sharing intimacy and touch to offer a profound healing experience.  And yet, none of this prepared me to experience it from the other side.

I finally gave myself a long-anticipated gift, something that had been rolling around my mind for a while, evoking equal parts of excitement and hesitation.  I hired an escort.  I paid for sex, but not just for sex.  For touch and intimacy, for the opportunity to surrender to the experience and enjoy being led, rather than leading the way.  This was an opportunity for me to reconnect with myself, to take some time out, and simply be held in a sensual space.

On another level, I made the decision to hire an escort so I could feel what it was like to switch roles, to be the client instead of the facilitator.  I believe that we can’t truly understand an experience unless we feel it from within.  In being the client, I could better understand how my own clients feel when they come to me.  When they make a decision to find the right person to offer sensual healing touch, when they show up for a session, not knowing what was about to happen, full of all the conflicting emotions that come in with new experiences, especially when these experiences ask us to open up and be vulnerable, to let go and drop in.

For me, the journey began before the session was even booked.  I explored my options online, looked through the sites until I found someone that felt right.  Even then, I felt threads of uncertainty and hesitation drop in.  This was something I’d been wanting to explore for some time, and I wanted to gift myself with the best experience possible.  So, I decided to go with a high-priced male escort, one whose profile and image spoke to me, one that really felt like a yes.  Even so, I found myself wondering as I was looking at the pictures on the site.  Were they real, genuine?  I had some pretty high expectations, and alongside these expectations, I found some doubt creeping in.

Once I’d made a decision, I started the process of booking my appointment.  I sent an email to the escort – let’s call him Jason – and he responded quickly.  Seeing it from the client’s side, I realised how important it was to me that he be present, even in the communications before the session was booked.  Jason was holding space for the experience from our first email.  We texted afterwards to confirm the date, and then the decision was made.  No going back now.

In the days and hours leading up to our date, I had some interesting feelings drop in.  After working professionally with so many clients, I never expected to feel nervous or self-conscious when receiving my own session.  Despite all that, I did.  Especially in the hours right before Jason arrived, I felt anxiousness rise up.  There was excitement, too, but that kind of nervous excitement that happens when you’re on the first date or leading up to that first kiss.

At one point, I was so nervous, I could feel my heart pounding in my chest.  Along with this flood of feeling came a slew of thoughts: Would he like me?  What sort of first impressions would I make?  Would we even connect? What would he smell like?  It’s hard to know how you’ll feel about someone when you’ve never met in person.  I was self-conscious, and I was beginning to doubt myself.  This whirlwind of thoughts and feelings threatened to really take me off-centre.

I’ve seen this in so many of my clients.  It’s not unusual to be nervous before the session begins, but it was different for me to be able to see this from the other side.  I took a breath, lit some incense to calm my nerves.  I even did a few deep breathing exercises to ground and bring myself back into my body, back into the present.  And, by the time Jason arrived, I was ready to invite him into my home.

First impressions: handsome, young, and fit.  Jason had an easy way about him that let me relax into the connection, and as we spoke, I found that he was funny, witty, well-spoken, and honest.  He had all the qualities of an outstanding escort, everything that I had hoped for and more.  Gradually, my nervousness slipped away, and I found that I was really enjoying the interaction.

I paid Jason before we began the session, and then we just spoke for a while – perhaps a half-hour.  Before we even moved into touch, I felt completely at ease, nothing rushed, nothing awkward.  And when we did enter that space, it was graceful, comfortable.  At first, my facilitator side popped up, wanting to guide and control the experience.  But, I pulled back, let go, and allowed Jason to lead the way.  And this was beautiful for me to see as well, how challenging it can be to really surrender, and how incredible it can be to be held in such a delicious, vulnerable space.

My attention was drawn in to the touch, my body opened, and I had a juicy, sensual encounter.  On a personal level, I had a delightful indulgence, a gift to myself that I won’t be forgetting any time soon.  And, on a professional level, I was able to experience aspects of being a client that I would never have understood without feeling it from the inside.

We all need touch and intimacy in our lives.  We need simple touch, hugging, and massage, as well as those deeper and sexier forms of touch that we can share with a trusted partner.  These experiences make us feel more alive and vital, they brighten our world and make us healthier, in mind, body, and soul.  Each of us needs an opportunity to indulge ourselves, to surrender control and drop into our bodies, into the pleasure of the moment.

After my date with Jason, I feel sexier, more confident, and more alive.  Although I knew that this was what I offer clients, it’s different to truly feel it, to know it from the side of the receiver.  And in really feeling it, I better understand what my clients need and desire, what they are going through when they come to me for a session.  I also have a deeper sense of softness and compassion for those clients who come to me nervous.  I really get it.

Jason offered me a truly wonderful experience, and it is one that I can whole-heartedly recommend to anyone that wishes to explore themselves, their intimacy and capacity for connection.  Thank you, Jason.  This was something that I had waited for, and it was worth the wait.

In love and light,


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